You know something's gone bad when the only reason you blog anymore is because you can't sleep and the King of the universe is actually commanding you to write. But nevertheless, here I am. I've had a slough of ideas over the past month, yet none of them are coming to me at present.
Why am I trying to go to sleep at 10pm rather than several hours later, as is my usual habit? Well I happen to be sick with a cold (again) and I figured some extra rest would do me good. Now just look where that got me. But since I feel the Lord calling me to write tonight, I figure there must be some purpose behind it.
I want to say at least two things about being sick.
Number one, it really stinks to be sick and to be a vocal major. And it's happening so often it feels like a routine now rather than a rarity. I've learned pretty well how to sing decently whilst being congested and coughing. The funny thing is though that this year I was determined not to get sick, and yet look what happened. But, I have a certain peace about it. Yeah, I hear Satan's lies about how in the world could I ever have a career in voice if I get sick every 2-3 months...but God's plan for me is bigger than Satan's trickery and my unbelief. God knows what He's doing, even if I don't. Getting sick gives me perspective. I fall in love with singing so much more because I don't get to do it. And I realize that my life is not my own, and my plans are not my own. Being sick is a blessing in disguise.
I want to touch on the passage in Matthew 9:12-13 that says, "But when He (Jesus) heard it, He said, 'Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. Go and learn what this means, 'I desire mercy, and not sacrifice.' For I came not to call the righteous, but sinners." Christ's mission was to save the flaw-filled, ugly, infected, diseased, evil, destitute, broken, and unholy souls. Praise God that He did!
After being sick so many times, I am beginning to recognize the symptoms and the causes. Do you recognize the symptoms of your soul sickness in your own life? If you are angry, unhappy, or bitter - do you realize the cause behind it? Only those who know they are sick will go see the Healer. Come to Him, and let Him heal your broken heart and bind up your wounds, and save your sin-stricken soul.
