Running...to nowhere

The semester is over. Summer is here. For me, at least. For everyone else on the planet...well, probably not. I have spent the last few days just chilling and enjoying doing things that I didn't get to do whilst in college - reading, writing, exercising, sunbathing...etc. etc. But now I feel like I'm at a standstill.
I'm at a standstill in so many ways - with relationships, with work, with writing (it's taking all my effort just to type this up), with my ambition, and the list goes on. It's not that I don't want to do those things - it's not that I'm apathetic - but I just can't. God has put them all on hold it seems. I want to be running, but I feel like I'm being kept under lock and key. I want my relationships to progress, I want to already be a concert performer, I want to be working. I want to be doing.
I tell myself it's probably just because college life moves so fast and now home life feels so slow in comparison. But I don't think that's the real reason. God has stopped (or not even started to begin with) a lot of things in my life. And I don't know why. All I can do is just wait.
I want to tell God, "Hey, are we on the same time zone? Cause um, I don't have a lot of time. Do you need a new watch?" Now I sound like the impatient whiner...which is what I am most of the time. Those questions are just foolish because God knows what He's doing; He's the author of time.
1 Corinthians 9:24 says, "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it." Right now I feel like I could sprint a marathon faster than ever, but yet the ground has been taken out from under me so in reality I'm not getting anywhere. I always hated running on treadmills because I never felt like I made any progress...and that's what I feel like right now. I'm like a runner all prepped up to go, muscles tensed, heart pounding, ready for the race - but there's no whistle. And I keep waiting for it, but it never blows. Eventually I tire of being in the ready stance and I become lazy.
But the Bible does not allow for us to become lazy. Mark 13:32-33 says, "But concerning that day or that hour, no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. Be on guard, keep awake. For you do not know when the time will come." We must be vigilant to always be on the watch for Christ and his return.
The Bible also commands us to wait upon the Lord - implying that there will be times when we will have to wait for Him. When His timing will not coincide with our timing.
Psalm 37:7 says, "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for Him". Be still. What a hard thing to do when it seems as though the rest of the world is moving fast and you aren't moving at all.
In Hebrews it tells us of our reward if we are patient: "And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through and patience inherit the promises." We will inherit God's promises if we have faith and are patient!! That is something that I can settle for. :)